InsaneJournal

Tweak says, "Have I taught you nothing?"

luke_lawliet (luke_lawliet) wrote,
@ 2008-06-23 21:49:00

Entry #C-5: "Chaos"
[audio recording]

I feel a complete and utter fool... and yet...

I don't know that I've ever been happier.

Do I have a reason? Mmm... no. No, not really. Not a good one, anyway. But I find myself grinning at inopportune moments and humming to myself when I should be focusing.

I don't even care that everyone can read this, because today, I'm walking on sunshine. That's right, Dorian, sunshine!

I think I can relate to all the poor idiots who fought the Trojan war over an something exquisite, sublime, radiant, gorgeous, enchanting...

She has such pretty hair... and she wears such pretty dresses...

(Post a new comment)

	my_private_life 2008-06-24 02:22 am UTC (link)
	Heh, sounds like you're having a good day, too. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 11:11 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] "Good day....?" Yes... yes, it can be called that. I'm certain that I am. And so are you, by the looks of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	my_private_life 2008-06-24 04:42 pm UTC (link)
	Well, yeah. I mean, it's a good day when you're in a good mood! Heh, yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Private L and Dorian boy_silhouette 2008-06-24 04:59 am UTC (link)
	Wowowowow! Ammm....hhnnn...happy for you! So full of eb-bulliance for you! Granny willll...say nothing out loud. Your, hm, secret is with usss! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Private L and Dorian luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 11:27 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Hnhn.... thank you, Dorian. I'll never forget that favor. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	franksunderland 2008-06-24 05:17 am UTC (link)
	Well, Ryuzaki, I'm... really glad you're happy. It... makes me happy to see you like that. (Reply to this)

	shabby_doll 2008-06-24 05:18 am UTC (link)
	It seems like a lot of people are having a good day today. (Reply to this)

	holylance 2008-06-24 04:07 pm UTC (link)
	Well, you seem awfully cheerful today. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 06:25 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] What? Can't a guy feel happy every now and then? They say that you live longer if you smile often, you know. Besides, I've noticed that a primary use for these journals is to complain endlessly. Take that Shinji kid, for instance... it's all, "these people are losers," and "I'm dissatisfied by THIS malfunction day," and so on and so forth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	You wouldn't happen to be talking about who I think you're talking about, would you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] I don't know, Kain. I can't read minds... so, maybe, maybe not. Just so you know, it isn't you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	Blythe. That's who you're talking about, isn't it? I knew it wasn't about me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 08:03 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Why would you think it's Blythe? In other words, was it that obvious? Not that I'm saying it is Blythe, but.. Good. Just... good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	...Maybe because you've mentioned to me before that you have a thing for her? I had no idea it was this serious. Well, it's obvious to anyone who has seen any of your public conversations with her. ...Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Private to L and Kain

luke_lawliet
2008-06-24 08:21 pm UTC (link)

[audio recording]

Um. Right.

I'm not going to fight you for her. If you want her, give her your best shot and treat her the way she deserves to be treated.

I haven't changed all that much... I still am most comfortable observing people from a distance.

But if you hurt her, or even treat her as less than the goddess she is, I will choke you with your own eyeballs and cut off the circulation in your legs using your optical nerves while playing music by the Insane Clown Posse at decibels that could shatter concrete directly into your ear canal.

...

Oh, my God. It is serious.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 10:04 pm UTC (link)
	What does she look like, a merry-go-round? Does she have people waiting for miles around just to take a shot at her? And you tell me to show her some respect. I'm not going to give her a trial run while you "observe", thanks. Right now, we're just friends. I'm just concerned about her. You seem to be a bit...obsessed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] I never actually did tell you to show her respect... though that's a good idea, now that you mention it. Trial run?! No, I never implied... hmph. It just figures that you'd see it that way, Kain. If I was obsessed, it would affect every aspect of my life, wouldn't it? You CAN see that I have other things on my mind, can't you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Private to L and Kain

holylance
2008-06-24 11:30 pm UTC (link)

To treat her with the kindness and deference you described would require me to respect her, don't you think? Not that I don't.

I sure sounded that way, Ryuzaki.

Still, don't you think you're taking this too far?

...You know what? Forget it. I don't even know why I'm taking this up with you.

((Ack, sorry about the comment deletion! Had to fix a typo. Dx))</small?

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	OOC holylance 2008-06-24 11:34 pm UTC (link)
	Holy god, I give up. IT. IT SURE SOUNDED THAT WAY. Wow. Why can't I type today? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: OOC luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 11:36 pm UTC (link)
	XD (Reply to this) (Parent)

Re: Private to L and Kain

luke_lawliet
2008-06-24 11:36 pm UTC (link)

[audio recording]

I suppose it would.

I don't know if I'm taking it too far... I mean, to me, it's a daydream. An intense one, but a dream, nonetheless. Just because she's beautiful and perfect and amazing and intelligent and my feminine ideal doesn't mean that I expect her to return that sentiment. I'd actually expect her to go for someone more like you.

I think I have an idea, of why you're taking this up with me. It's just a hunch, you know, but I've made a career of hunches. I think you fancy her.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 11:48 pm UTC (link)
	A daydream, huh? Oh, she seems to like you just fine. ...What?! No. No, I don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-24 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	[audio recording] She is, as you've said in the past, a very nice girl. She's just being polite, no doubt. Can I ask a simple question? Why don't you feel that way about her? If you give me a good enough reason, maybe I can let my fears of a confrontation rest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-24 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	She nearly had kittens earlier because you weren't around. Ha. Maybe because she's nosey, stubborn, and quick tempered? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 12:13 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] ... Kittens? Blythe? Because of me? A moment of silence in which L may or may not be stroking his ego I prefer "interested," "steadfast," and "spirited." But really insult her, and I'm not sure what I'd be driven to do, Kain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 12:17 am UTC (link)
	Yes. Just look at her latest journal entry. If you say so. Oh, I'm shaking in my boots, Ryuzaki. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 12:23 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Ah, yes... she appears to be concerned. While I feel sorry for worrying her, that sort of makes me feel... hard to describe. At the moment, though, I'm looking at your journal entry. What do you have to say to her that's so private you make it unhackable? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 12:26 am UTC (link)
	You'd better let you know you haven't been doing anything dangerous, even if you have. Oh, nothing. Just continuing on an argument that got started earlier. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 12:28 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] How about a nice, neutral "I'll fight my battles and you fight yours?" Why is that remark somehow dubious in most regards? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Fine by me, as long as you refrain from worrying her in the future. Because you're paranoid? We're just having a disagreement out of the public eye, for once. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 12:47 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] It's not paranoia if someone's really out to get you. And I have the distinct feeling that your "disagreement" isn't entirely not my business. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 12:52 am UTC (link)
	Really Ryuzaki, does it bother you that much, not being able to see what I'm saying? I wonder if you've been trying to get into my other entries, too. Your "distinct feeling" is wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 01:00 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Actually, I have been! You're a lousy liar, even in the journals, Kain. What are you telling her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 01:04 am UTC (link)
	WHAT?! How dare you?! Where are you? I'm going to teach you a lesson about privacy you won't soon forget! As If I would tell you now. Why don't you just hack into it, like you do everything else? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 01:07 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] If you're going to teach me a lesson about privacy, go somewhere I can't see you and do it. I'm working on it, but it's not often that I encounter such inebriated and idiotic codes as the ones you've used. It's so primitive that it paralyzes me, momentarily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 01:14 am UTC (link)
	I have to cross paths with you at some point, Ryuzaki. Just remember that. Do you really, really want to know what I'm talking to her about? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 01:17 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Why, pray tell? I'll be happy if you just leave me alone... Yes. Yes, I do. The truth, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 01:22 am UTC (link)
	If something is marked private, I don't want anyone getting into it. That's why. I told her what you told me. You know, the whole beautiful and perfect and amazing and intelligent and my feminine ideal thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 01:31 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] slight choking sound. Ryuzaki is obviously somewhere trying hard not to throw up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 01:44 am UTC (link)
	Don't worry about it. She doesn't even believe me. In fact, she's jumping to your defense. I don't think you need to worry in the least about any sort of competition from me, Ryuzaki. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain luke_lawliet 2008-06-25 01:59 am UTC (link)
	[audio recording] Thank goodness you have no credibility... otherwise, I might have just lost all of my organs. Really? She's not condemning me as a sorry idiot who is chasing a delusion of happiness he can never attain? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 02:16 am UTC (link)
	Wow, thank you for the vote of confidence, Ryuzaki! No. She isn't. Apparently you can do no wrong. ((Prods over to Blythe's journal The mother of all catfights is happening between Blythe and Lina, haha! ♥ )) (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Re: Private to L and Kain holylance 2008-06-25 12:28 am UTC (link)
	((...You'd better let her know. I think I need to lie down. x_x)) (Reply to this) (Parent)

	pyro_madness 2008-06-24 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	Good to see ya in a good mood. (Reply to this)

	givemefood 2008-06-25 01:42 am UTC (link)
	That's great~! I like how happy everyone's getting lately (well, most people...? Okay, a couple...) Hope things keep going well for ya. (Reply to this)